You give me power to crush you...and every day the urge grows. You restrain me with your energy. Messing with my strength, feeding off my indecision. I hope you know you're doing nothing but coaxing the beast out of me.. And the only thing stopping me from giving you exactly what you deserve is I know you want, need, and expect just that from me... these mind games are far too extensive. Everywhere I trun I find a new wire you've installed in my mind...I wanted so much someone to love and care for...so much to have a best friend...but I wanted it too much. I was blind to what you were doing to me...how you were changing me...now I couldn't get away from you if I tried. I hope you know you are my nightmare and a godsend all in one...I hope you know when you die I'll be laughing and crying all at once... When you're gone, all my fears, all my insecurities, all my lost faith with die with you. But to kill the memories...to kill the love that I once felt.. such a heavy price you've put on your head...Before I let you fingers slip off the edge, I should tell you you are nothing, I should tell you that you're no one, I should tell you no matter what you can't hurt me, And I'm not afraid. But I'll settle for a soul tear drop slidding down my cheek. There is no up and down with you, no direction, and when I find direction, you manipulate your way into my life to fuck it all up again. I have no problem telling you, you're pathetic, you're a bitch, you're a monster. But I know that'd make you smile, so I will kill you with resistance. I'm not an easy sister to lose... And I know you feel the connection still between us too.. so get the fuck off your ass and make something work, because I will not wait out forever in the twilight zone with you... I thought I'd love it...but I will not sit next to a monster for all time...I thought I was sitting beside and angel...Fuck.